I just survived a divorce which began when I was 3 months pregnant. Now, about a year and a half later, I find myself about 40 pounds too heavy with post-baby weight, and want to get in shape again.
I find, however, when I think about losing weight, part of me balks. I met my ex-husband when I was 125 lbs and 5'10". He turned out to be attracted to me primarily for my looks and gradually became more abusive as time progressed.
I think underneath my desire to lose weight is a fear that if I become attractive again, I'll only attract the same kind of superficial man. Plus, I feel that there is no point in going through all the effort to be pretty.