How to find a goal that is meaningful
I am stuck.
I no longer know what I want from my life.
I have a roof over my head, sufficient money to provide for my needs (nothing excessive), access to a good library (I am an avid reader) and the internet, but no employment. I have no family and no close friends but I enjoy my solitude, and do not feel lonely.
However I suffer from bouts of severe depression (+ social anxiety). I feel that I lack meaning in my life. I think that if I could find something to aspire to, something that was meaningful to me I might shake off this depression. If I could find something important to me, I think I could keep motivated, as each small step of the way would give me reward. If I could get started I might there are other things that I might aim for as well as or instead of this first one.
But I need this first aspiration, the one that gets me out of bed in the morning and looking forward to the rest of the day, the rest of the week, the rest of my life, the one that gets me excited about each small step I make towards its achievement.