Getting More Socially Awkward
Something I've noticed getting progressively worse over time is my social interaction with people. I used to be a happy-go-lucky always giddy class clown back in my grade-school days, more specifically middle school and about half of high school. I'm 21 now, and in college. So here it is: I feel GREATLY uncomfortable around people I don't know. I have a small group of close friends that I am perfectly fine with, but with everyone else it feels really different. I'll sit there quietly while everyone else is talking amongst each other. But here is my biggest issue. The conversations are usually about something I really don't have any say in. How am I supposed to respond to a conversation that's about nothing I know of, or about a situation in which I was not present to witness? So I just sit there, and people think I'm just unfriendly or shy, when I really just have nothing to say! Another factor to this situation is the fact that I really can't talk all that well. I mean, I CAN talk, its just whenever I attempt to respond to someone or start a conversation, I really don't know how to start/say whatever it is I was going to say. I sometimes slur my words, forget a detail and go back in the conversation (usually a lot, and it feels really embarrassing when I do)..that's pretty much it. It's a lot worse than it might sound. It really kills my social self-esteem when I can't even get my words right. Any ideas as to what I can do to help myself? Or at least to give it a name?